Jillian Is Your Friend

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The Great Switch: Pursuing The Dream

When the universe is telling me this is where I’m meant to be, I don’t want to let it down.

Before I hit the quarter-life, I decide to actually tell my brain to shut up & follow what I have been dying to fully pursue after what seem to be millions of attempts in pushing myself to get “a real job” for the past four years.

Even if this means forgoing a stable, monthly salary (as a control freak, you can imagine how many times I hyperventilated at this notion). Even if this means applying full make up in between VTRS, auditions & shows in a day — and on a moving bus for that matter. Even if this means being exhausted at the end of the day riding a train home amidst stares in the same full make up. Even if this means getting one job for every twenty (or more) auditions. Even if this means experiencing the highest of highs & the lowest of lows. I cannot begin to tell you how greatly overwhelming every emotions is — fear, excitement, joy, pain. I feel them in extremes, never a gray area. But as I plunge into this great change, I welcome everything with a headstrong state of mind.

A compilation of the behind the scenes of my current life.

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This entry was posted on April 17, 2015 by in Uncategorized.
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